last night, I went to a party. I can remember the night well enough to list the events pretty clearly, but im not going to. Just wanted to add that little fact. So long story short;

I drank vodka, gin, tequila, and a beer or two… But mostly gin. Okay a LOT of gin. And guess what gives killer ass hangovers? -__- great. So I was really messed up, came home around 1 or 2 in the morning, and immediately took my shirt off because my house was HOT, and my mom walked in. We got in a fight, but i don’t really remember it. Then i called “him” and he came back to pick me up and took me back to the party. We crashed over there last night and hung out with them the next morning. My dad called me that next morning, and was surprisingly not mad at all.. Which scared the hell out of me, so i came home a couple hours later.

Everyone thinks I’m an alcoholic and a binge drinker, but I’m not entirely convinced. I don’t think i’m an alcoholic, but i do tend to binge drink. I don’t need alcohol; I like it. I mean.. I COULD say no, I just don’t want to. Maybe thats my issue. Hey, it’s not MY fault everybody wants to party on winter break. And it’s not that I don’t know my limit, it’s more that when I’m drinking.. I like to sustain the feeling and drunken me doesn’t ever want to go back to being sober me. The thing about me is that I don’t drink; I get drunk. That’s not great but all it is, is that I just need to learn to stop when I should stop… but i have a feeling AA doesn’t teach you THAT kind of lesson.